Cars on a cable


Stolen from slasherflick's blog..

"Actual Happiness always looks pretty squalid in comparison with the over-compensations for misery. And, of course, stability isn't nearly as spectacular as instability. And being contented has none of the glamour of a good fight against misfortune, none of the picturesqueness of a struggle with temptation, or a fatal overthrow by passion or doubt. Happiness is never grand"-Aldous Huxley

Exactly what I mean by "trainwreck appeal". There's beauty in wreckage. *Wreck of the Day plays in the background;her live set btw is AMAZINGGG* It's undeniable. No, not sick. Just different. You know what they say, you shun what you dont understand.

Wow. I'm stunned by that quote. In complete awe. Almost like when I realised how pretty East Coast can get sometime last week. Says everything, doesn't it?

Pretty East Coast.

Why see. I told you. And that wasn't a lame spinoff/weak attempt at trying to be all "let's-do-panoramic(sortof)-views-today".

Also, am faced with a shitload of things to think and ponder about. Using your friggin head weighing issues can't be all that bad sure. But my god. It's hell frustrating sometimes. Most of the time when nothing's a certainty and yet you somehow feel that sense of obligation towards... god knows who/what really. Man, I'm Confused Chick right now.

Been battling it out. All out. Pride? That needs to be chucked COMPLETELY aside right now. It'll be humbling, you can bet on that. But a lesson I need to learn, I think. We'll see. Besides, the eternal optimist has gotta stay true to her name. She tries to. Her darnest.

But the whole idea of THAT.. Well I can't help but break a smile. Key word being "idea", but it's alright cos Patience is indeed, a virtue. And each time I venture ANYWHERE near thinking of absolute crap, in this area at least, I'll think of that song, and continue believing.

Blogger's note: Hi, the dirt (like dirtiest of all dirt) is all in elllljayyyy. Yes, unfortunately for you loyal readers, I've decided to join the army of "I-need-my-privacy-so-I'm-controlling-readership" folks. So try your luck and get one already, damn it. Like Najib, Mudd and Clara. Awwh, they boulder. Not rock. BOULDER.

So I will just let go; let you turn me inside out

And so the truth spits out


Since all this is totally, completely 100% public, this will have to do. (: Awwh. L.A.W kicks ass. And I feel bad sometimes. But then I know I shouldn't. Cos everything happens for a reason. That each ship sails its own individual route and if it's over and done with, then so be it.

Somehow, I don't think there's a way to salvage it. Unless you start acting more human. Whatever. I couldnt care less. Since the day I realised how much it's all worth.

Loyalties tested. And I made the stand.

Perhaps it all started from that, or not. But I've suddenly been feeling all "private" and shushed. Oh trust me, I've been updating, just on the other more PERSONAL one. Too bad suckers. It's locked and unfortunately, I customize my groups so even if you're my ljfriend, it doesnt mean you automatically get to read.

Since when the secrecy? Well, darlings, what I've to say is exclusive. So. Hahah. Anyway, it's largely because there's too much too little people know. So. And sorry to burst your bubble, but I'm no blonde who's gna type EVERYTHING out here. You know how some people do the dumbest of things on their open, like open Bianca of Othello kinda open for all, blog. Honestly. Too weird.

I think. It's only a matter of time before I shift permanently to lj. But but. I like this one here. ): How now. Main thing, go get an lj. Who knows. I may just invite you to my exclusive group. HAHAH. No but really. I love the whole, "I can control readership" thing. Brilliant.

One psycho night..


Because I decided to be different that one night. Oh. Ronald's so hot. Not to mention sexy French Men who talked to ME yes ME at 350AM. Wow. Super omgomgomg moment right there. Hehe. And just for the record, I was looking pretty crappy. HAH. I KNOWWW. TOO COOL.

Anyway, I'll just have you know that it makes me sad sometimes. I mean sure, as it is, it's pretty cool. But it makes me sad cos I don't think you'll ever know a connection of PROPER depths. Then again, ignorance is bliss. So. But heck, what about your principles?! Do you even have any!?

Right now, over at Aniszah's. And she's fast asleep that silly girl. Gosh, you've no idea how much I missed you idiot! I better turn in now. Sleeping never felt so good, like man, what luxury. LOL.



Cos I'm a show off like that. And okay. Narcissistic, fine. Hearts you many many. Come folks, let's meet up. You know who you are. Sending all my love out to those who deserve it, hah what a bitchy thing to say eh?


I'm done looking.